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I am still grieving over the lost of my grandma. I just couldn't believe that she is no longer with us. Hari Raya ni mesti lain gilerr...coz driving to my mum's kampung is a must every raya. well, this year, only my uncle will be there. Sedey..Now, I have only one grandma (my dad's side). Both my grandfathers passed away long-long time ago. I didn't get to know my granddad on my father's side since he passed away before I was even born. My other granddad is a javanese. He was an Indonesian soldier, left wandering here, in Malaysia during the Malaysia-Indonesia Confrontation. He married my grandma and his very wish, to the last day of his life, is to visit his family in Indonesia. He had a wife and several children there. I never got to know them. My grandad often received letters from his kids, and I knew, he was very sad everytime he read the letters since he could not be with them. When I went to Jakarta last year, it did cross my mind la kalau dapat jumpa family kat sana, mesti best, but again, almost impossible coz after my grandad died (when I was 16), we never received letters from them.

After getting back to Kerteh, and start working, I started thinking. What if sumthing happens to my parents? Will I be able to take care of them, the way my mum took care of her mum during the last days of her life? I am here, in kerteh, hundreds of kilomtres away from them....and then..i get a call from a friend, asking me whether i'm interested to work in his company in Melaka. I was interested at first, but due to something, which I could not tell here (the story is too long and it is still confidential), I think I have to reject the offer. But another one is coming, only the location is in kl, but still, only 2 hours drive..I'm still thinking and weighing....But seriously, I wanna go home...so, wish me luck!